I can't believe it's been 15 years since I created this account. TBH it's a miracle I remembered the password I made when I was just 12 years old. While this account serves me no practical purpose, I really hope it never dissapears as it represents a window to happier times for me. I wish I could always live in the present but sadly most of the time I find myself stuck in the late 00's / early 2010's and coming back to the memories of those times more and more. It's a double-edged sword, because sometimes these "regressions" help me manage my feelings for a while so I can keep going with my life as it is today, but I feel like it's slowly becoming obsessive and I fear the moment I stop feeling joy in the here and now. Back then I never would've thought I'd become a musician and I'm thankful for having the opportunity of following that life path. Still, sometimes the hardships of adulthood feel unbearable, also by not actually having a great mental health I feel lost most of the time. Since the pandemic many things started feeling extremely overwhelming. I guess I'm writing this with the hope that I never forget to stay grounded in this day and age, as well as a way of venting where mostly no one will read this. I'll never stop coming back to the past even if no one's here anymore, but I'll try to do it in a more healthy way.